He Knows My Name.

I don't know what I'm feeling, it's a mix between desperation and hope. I really have lots of things I envision, yet at the pace I'm going I'm not gonna make it anywhere. How are you supposed to make it on youw own without Jesus? Living on your own strength and pretending the whole world is going okay when you know you desperately need to cling on to him, the only hope. And so I'm going to so that, gonna make use of my time wisely,buck up, and press on. Hoping that You'll break me so that I'll be totally reliant on you, and yet praying that you'll do it ever so gently. I trust in your providence(or do I not?) God show me please. I wanna say ILOVEYOU and really mean it in ite entirity.