He Knows My Name.

It's been a long time, too long since I've had a chat with my best friend.
I think it's impossible for man to live without God,
I think it's pointless for man to live without God.
But hey, I'm the biggest hypocrite alive.
I say over and over again to myself, snap out of it, I want to get back to
where our relationship was in the past, close, just Him and me.
Yet stupidly, very stupidly I never get around to it.
He's coming back again, but when I say to Him Lord Lord,
will He acknowledge me as His child?
There's so many things to do, everyday for starters I look at myself,
and I know why His heart aches. SIN. I'm filled with it.
And I look at the people around, how they live, how behind every happy face,
there never seems to be genuine happiness.
Well I believe genuine happiness arises in the midst of your hardest, most painful
trials where you know He put you through it, to be refined by His fire.
I want to be broken and humbled before Him.

I'm not ashamed to let my weaknesses be made known.
I'm scared of people, of how they will judge me.
I'm scared of failing, of not meeting expectations of others.
I'm scared of losing things, of regretting things.
And now I'm lifting everything into Your hands.
let me prove and be judged by You and Your Holy standards.
And find the faults in me, refine me, and make me a humbled servant
for You. You alone.

I thank You for the cross.
I thank You for You.
&i thank You for making me.